And you thought Tough Mudder was tough?
We throw Lee in at the deep end at University of Huddersfield
This is my first time being in recovery and I’m learning new things about myself every day. I do share in meetings but sometimes I get really self-obsessed and struggle to share. So when Heath approached me and asked if I would come along and help him with a presentation he was doing at University of Huddersfield, my first reaction was I can’t do that. He told me he was a man short and that Michelle had heard me sharing to the workers from DISC and that I could come along and give a similar speech to a few students. I agreed to come along. He then told me we would be setting off in the morning and my head nearly fell off and I thought again, I can’t do that. But that’s the old me – negative thinking and full of self-doubt.
We (Richard, Stan and Heath) set off the next morning. In the car journey I was calm and relaxed but as soon as we arrived at the University the nerves started. When we entered the room where we were doing the presentation and I saw all the students, I just wanted to turn around and run away. I was so nervous.
Heath started the presentation, then Richard followed by Stan. I remember watching them and thinking they looked really professional knowing my turn to get up was fast approaching. My mouth was dry, my hands were sweating – I got the nudge from Heath and all eyes were on me. I remember standing up and my legs feeling like jelly. I gave a brief talk about some of my drug use and a bit about my recovery and what The Basement has done for me. My mind went blank a couple of times – I looked over to my fellow recoverees only to be greeted with big grins and nods to carry on.
It was a really good experience and I’m proud of myself for seeing it through. To get up in front of all those people and give a talk was a really big thing for me – something I thought I would never do.
Article featured in RecoveryTimes issue 8